But oh my darling what if you fly?

We're in the depths of COVID-19 lock down here in Thunder Bay.  I'm almost at the end of 2 weeks of self-isolation after returning from our time in Arizona. I have no great words of wisdom to help anyone through. Despite the reason why we have this situation and why I have to self-isolate, I think I'm fortunate than most. Work is paying me for my missed shifts, something I worried about at first. And I'm an introverted homebody. Staying home is bliss to me. Being on a regular day awake/ night sleep is something I haven't experienced this long (almost a month) for over  15 years! A treat. I've missed lunches and dinners with friends but we'll catch up when we're able. Meanwhile we have the phone, email, texts and messenger.

And I have my memories of a wonderful holiday. I wasn't feeling 100% throughout---came off 3 days of being bedridden then a remaining few days of almost double vision, being off balance--and the book festival was cancelled due to the virus. But none of that mattered. We had a fantastic time. Tucson surprised me by how beautiful it was, surrounded by mountains with lots of varied vegetation. 

Sabino Canyon

Tucson from Mount Lemmon

Dane and Jonathan packed our time full of things to do and places to visit plus a 2 day trip to Las Vegas that it felt like we had 50 vacations in one. But we also had some quiet, reflective times. We went to Jonathan's services at Tucson New Thought twice and to the meditations there twice. We were very fortunate to be part of the last two in-person services that Tucson New Thought held as now the services and meditations are all virtual and they will join with Unity of Tucson in April and beyond as Jonathan is senior minister at Unity starting in April. In the last service there, we were extremely honoured to witness Logan fulfill a dream they'd had: they sang a solo--the last time they had sang was half their lifetime ago when they were 11!  Below is the uplifting song that Logan beautifully sang---so beautifully in fact that they were asked to sing it again.  We were all so emotional. Logan had reached out to Jonathan who encouraged Logan to come to TNT stressing that they would be met with open arms. So Logan took a big chance.

The song's lyrics, "What if it All Goes Right?" (sung by Melissa Lawson) reminded me of a gift that Louise gave me when I received my OAC grant a few years ago. She gave me a beautiful pen and a card with this quote on it:  You ask, 'What if I fall?' But oh my darling, what if you fly? The song's lyrics start out with fear but then burst into everything being better than okay. What if that limb holds you oak tree strong? What if that road is a beautiful slow drive? How often do we not think that way? What if it all works out?

Hhhmmm...not sure if that will work as a video. Here is the link if not. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MRbSUPWSdcE
It is a beautiful song. I hope you'll give it a listen.

In my last blog I had mentioned a string of things which had gone wrong and how I was (or wasn't!) dealing with it. Hearing Logan sing the song, seeing their energy soar, made me think of how in the end everything had worked out beyond my best dreams. I chose to keep the car, got it repaired beautifully and still had money left over and work stepped up and offered to pay me for my shifts missed in self isolation. Neither of those wonderful things had been on my radar. Sometimes we are so mired in the fear (what if I fall?) that we can't even begin to imagine everything working out. Sometimes we're not privy to how things could work out. Sometimes it takes blind faith. And that's okay. Sometimes we simply need to go with the flow. And trust, however, wherever we can.

Ending with much love to you. Wishing you faith and love and moments to cherish in these strange times. 

My birthday, Monday 15th March 2020 with Dane, Jonathan and Rob. Sad at having to leave the next day but couldn't be happier at all the time spent together.