Ever had a day where you feel like you're crawling out of your skin? Nothing feels quite right? I don't usually but today I've changed my top four times, finally comfortable with what I've chosen. I've been negligent in checking my blood sugars lately--they never really varied from the norm--but this morning I was going to be home and so could do the pre-meal/fast then check-in two hours later. My first reading was 14 when it's supposed to be between 4-7. That was quite alarming! But accounted for a general feeling of sluggishness. Two hours later, after breakfast, my body had got itself back under control and my reading was 8, within target range. I read up about it on line and figure erratic sleeping patterns due to lack of discipline and midnight shifts have a lot to do with it. I think I'll monitor it more closely in future. Dane called to chat while driving between Sudbury and Kapuskasing for his job but we lost connection twice. He was just checking in. He'll call again when settled in Kapuskasing. Rob and I couldn't decide if we wanted to go out for lunch or not. Finally we decided not. The weather feels cooler which is very welcome, but also unsettled, shifting from sunshine to wind and clouds. I'm itching to make changes in our home, clearing clutter, trying to not let the tasks overwhelm me into immobility which is what usually happens. Little x little = LOTS + LOTS This is my mantra even though the little things sometimes (often) don't get done, little 10 minute tasks which will move everything forward. All change begins with me. I watched Sunday's service from the Centre For Spiritual Living Toronto (where my son-in-law Jonathan used to be the spiritual director) this morning and they played a song which Jonathan and the Queen Street Band used to play: Michael Jackson's "Man in The Mirror" which is all about making changes within yourself. When Jonathan sang it, I listened more closely to the words and gained a stronger appreciation for the message: If you want to make the world a better place, take a look at yourself then make a change. At the beginning of this post, you can see the painting I finished. I had shared its caterpillar/chrysalis stage in my last post about feeling awkward with children and looking to change that. The piece is heavily influenced by Effy Wild's work but I'm pleased with the catch phrase I came up with: To Receive, Radiate. It encompasses everything about being the change you want to see. On a day that started with feeling unsettled, this is another good way to settle back into myself, holding myself with compassion and looking inside to see what I really need to tend to in myself right now. May you feel at peace with yourself today. I wanted to end with this lovely heartwarming song. I'm stealing this idea from my friend, Debbie Metzler, who used to close her weekly radio programme with the same song. I was reminded of this during a shared trip to Winnipeg last week. I love these kind of 'blessing songs' and I wish for you everything in this blessing:
Til We Meet Again (possibly Johnny Reid? Can't find the writer) May the sun shine on your shoulders May luck and love be your friends For now, always, forever; til we meet again May your troubles be few I hope life's good to you May your heart beat steady and strong Yeah I wish you the best May you find happiness Every step of the road you're on May the wind fill your sails through the rain and the hail Carry you safely back home May your journey unfold to a big pot of gold At the end of your way home May the sun shine on your shoulders May luck and love be your friends For now, always, forever; til we meet again May life fill you glass May the memories last Let the whiskey kiss you good night May you wake every day with a smile on your face And the ones that you love by your side May the sun shine on your shoulders May luck and love be your friends For now, always, forever; til we meet again
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maggie p
8/28/2018 03:39:32 pm
Donny and Marie Osmond have always closed their shows with a similar song, may tomorrow be a perfect day may you find love and laughter along the way etc.,
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AuthorWelcome! I'm Sue Blott: a writer of all things, a poet at heart, mom, wife, daughter, step-mom, grandma, tea drinker, tai chi-er, mystic, artist, dreamer...and now a blogger! This is my world. Categories |